do you honestly know how many nights i stay up just thinking about you? how many days go by wishing i’d get just one text or call from you, wondering if maybe i should give in and hit you up first like always? i still want to show you how much you mean to me, how much i’d still fight to prove that i don’t want to be like the people you’ve been with before. i still want to try, i’m just scared that you wouldn’t care if i did or not.